nolongerhuman_77 × N-skee
僕が死のうと思ったのは
Boku ga Shinou to Omotta no wa
The Reason I Thought About Dying

nolongerhuman_77 · prod. N-skee

original by Mika Nakashima (中島美嘉) · written by amazarashi

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peach — beach
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red — city
cyan — room
navy — pivot
Verse 1 — Pier
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Neko ga sanbashi de naita kara
Was because a cat cried at the pier
Nami no ma ni ma ni ukande kieru
Floating and vanishing between the waves
Kako mo oita de tonde yuke
Let the past fly away on the board too
Verse 2 — Apricot Blossoms
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Tanjoubi ni anzu no hana ga saita kara
Was because apricot blossoms bloomed on my birthday
Sono komorebi de utatane shitara
If I dozed off in that komorebi
Mushi no shigai to tsuchi ni nareru kana
I wonder if I could become soil with the dead insects
Verse 3 — Peppermint Rain
Hakka ame kyokou no toudai
Peppermint rain, a fictional lighthouse
Sabita aachi-bashi suteta jitensha
A rusted arch bridge, an abandoned bicycle
Mokuzou no eki no sutoobu no mae de
In front of the stove at the wooden station
Doko ni mo tabidatenai kokoro
A heart that can't depart anywhere
Kyou wa marude kinou mitai da
Today is just like yesterday
Ashita wo kaeru nara kyou wo kaenakya
If I want to change tomorrow, I have to change today
Wakatteru wakatteru keredo
I know, I know, but still
Verse 4 — Empty Heart
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Kokoro ga karappo ni natta kara
Was because my heart became empty
Mitasarenai to naiteiru no wa
The reason I cry that I'm unfulfilled
Kitto mitasaretai to negau kara
Is surely because I wish to be fulfilled
Verse 5 — Shoelaces
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Kutsuhimo ga hodoketa kara
Was because my shoelaces came untied
Musubi naosu no wa nigate nan da yo
I'm not good at tying them back
Hito to no tsunagari mo mata shikkari
And connections with people too, once again
Verse 6 — The Boy
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Shounen ga boku wo mitsumeteita kara
Was because a boy was staring at me
Beddo no ue de dogeza shiteru yo
I'm prostrating on the bed
Ano hi no boku ni gomen nasai to
Saying sorry to the me of that day
Verse 7 — Birdcage
Pasokon no usu akari
The dim light of a computer
Joukai no heya no seikatsu-on
The sounds of life from the room upstairs
Intaafon no chaimu no oto
The sound of the intercom chime
Mimi wo fusagu torikago no shounen
The boy in the birdcage covering his ears
Mienai teki to tatakatteru
Fighting invisible enemies
Rokujou hitoma no oto wo kikoete
Hearing the sounds of a six-tatami room
Gooru wa douse minikui mono sa
The goal is ugly anyway
Verse 8 — Called Cold
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Tsumetai hito to iwareta kara
Was because I was called a cold person
Aisaretai to naiteiru no wa
The reason I cry wanting to be loved
Hito no nukumori wo shitte shimatta kara
Is because I learned the warmth of people
Verse 9 — You Laugh Beautifully
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Anata ga kirei ni warau kara
Was because you laugh so beautifully
Shinu koto bakkari kangaete shimau no wa
The reason I keep thinking about dying
Kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara
Is surely because I'm too serious about living
Final Verse — A Little Hope
Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa
The reason I thought about dying
Mada anata ni deatte nakatta kara
Was because I hadn't met you yet
Anata no you na hito ga umareta
Someone like you was born into
Sekai wo sukoshi suki ni natta yo
This world, and I came to like it a little
Anata no you na hito ga ikiteru
Someone like you is alive in
Sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
This world, and I have a little hope for it

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